I must remind myself–

they can’t tell that I didn’t write this bit immediately after that one

the six months where I ignored the manuscript are not visible to the naked eye

the bit where I put my head in my hands and muttered “I have no idea what I’m doing” takes place in the single space between the period and the next capital letter.

As soon as I shove that character in, she has always been there

and someone will probably say that she’s the emotional center

and the book couldn’t have been written without her

and nobody will know that I thought of her three thousand words from the end and scrolled up and shoehorned in a couple of paragraphs near the beginning because, for whatever reason, the story needed an elderly nun

she was almost the cook

and for about ten minutes she was the earnest young village priest

and now she has been there since you started reading.

I am sanding down the places where my editor found splinters

kicking up a fine dust of adjectives and dropped phrases

(Wear a breath mask. Work in a well-ventilated area. Have you seen what excess commas can do to your lungs?)

and eventually it will all be polished to a high shine

and hopefully when someone looks into it

they’ll see their own face reflected back

instead of mine.

  • reply Viktor ,

    Very cool.

    • reply tea ,

      You know you’ve reached the apex of procrastination when you can write blank verse on revision. ☺

      Thanks for sharing with all of us in the same slog.

    • reply Thom Ryng ,

      Yes! Yes! Yes!

      Bismark supposedly said “The making of laws like the making of sausages, is not a pretty sight”. To this, I would add writing and editing.

      • reply Prof. Godel Fishbreath ,

        Best ever. Shared the URL with writers groups on FB.

        • reply fairyhedgehog ,

          Totally brilliant!

          • reply Godel Fishbreath ,

            I have shared this often.
            I have recently found it dead linked, found the date and month of the last link, refound it and again pasted the url to FB.
            Thanks, this is great.

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